Malaise and Ennui
Friday, Aug. 04, 2006 at 11:50 a.m.
Whazzup, slinky dogs?
Personally, I have to pee. I�ll be right back.
Much better.
Anyhoo.
What has been going on lately in the casa Valkyrie? Well, it seems like more of the same. I enjoy being happy and content, yet there is some nagging feeling that I�m missing out on something.
This feeling might also be related to a message passed on to me by the lovely erianne1, and the crux of the message was that I needed to �Pay Attention.�
Which is exactly what I haven�t been doing. I�ve been in this half-assed mode for a long time, and when I think about it, it�s really convenient to blame it on my surgically-induced menopause. I feel like I�ve been only half-way astrally projected, like I�m kind of �splinched� or something. (splinched, if I remember correctly is what happens when you don�t quite apparate completely or properly, as per Harry Potter.)
Or is it simply a big case of the �I don�t wanna�s? God knows I don�t want to clean the house, work as necessary to lose weight, stick to my exercise routine . . . I�m even having a hard time updating this blog, and, when I look back on my entries, isn�t it interesting how they�ve more or less drabbled off into photologues and random memes?
I know you all like the pictures. I think they�re fun too.
I just have this nagging feeling that I�m missing out on something, or, rather, that I�m being cheated out of something. How is that even possible, though? I have everything I could ever need and nearly everything I want.
What the hell am I so afraid of?
Is this feeling going to be remedied by a very large, very strong drink? Or a really fantastic boffing session with the Hubster? A mini-vacation out of this fucking way-too-hot town?
A combination of the three couldn�t hurt.
Sorry. I�m being all . . . bleah.
Maybe I should turn up some really loud music and go all Footloose on the house. It might help.
Oh, here�s a snarky picture, because, well, I don�t want to disappoint everyone. But my heart�s just not in it.
Well, thanks one hell of a lot. Then what can I do?